If you've ever felt this way let me say very sensitively....
We worship God because HE is worthy. Notice the statements of heavenly worship recorded in Revelation 4 and 5. Several times they begin, "You are worthy..." Worship is based on God's worth, not ours. Where ever did we get the idea that in order for me to worship God I have to be a certain kind of person. Worship is not an expression of my spiritual attainment but an expression of the God's holiness, glory, majesty, power, etc, etc, etc.
I can understand the feeling of hypocrisy that might arise from singing a song whose core message is "I will always obey you," when perhaps you have not been living in obedience. Perhaps you have even been living in blatant disobedience. In a situation such as this you may feel that your worship is lie. I am not encouraging you to lie. But to realize there are many ways you can worship God that have nothing to do with you!
GOD IS ALWAYS WORTHY OF WORSHIP! No matter my mood, my condition, my situation, my health, my trials, or anything else that starts with "my"! That is what is so AWESOME about God and worthy of worship that HIS WORTH DOES NOT CHANGE! He is ALWAYS WORTHY. "He does not change like shifting shadows." James 1:16
No matter what else is shifting in our lives, including us, HE DOES NOT!
Something else that may surprise you is that you don't have to be a Christian to worship God. Hold on a minute. My core definition of worship is to "make God God." In other words, whatever you worship is your God. But there is another aspect of worship. The understanding and declaration of truth whatever your personal commitment to it.
Read Daniel 3:28
Then Nebuchadnezzar said, “Praise be to the God of Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego, who has sent his angel and rescued his servants! They trusted in him and defied the king’s command and were willing to give up their lives rather than serve or worship any god except their own God
What Nebuchadnezzar is doing here could easily be described as worship. He recognized and declared God's worth above all other gods even above his own authority. Does this mean that Nebuchadnezzar became a follower of the Hebrew God? That is a question for future discussion. Right now though we can learn that I can always worship God, declaring his worth no matter my current feelings on my worth.
Am I encouraging duplicity? Am encouraging you to say one thing and live another? Personally I cannot believe that you can declare God's greatness and worth and be unaffected by it. You may feel like a hypocrite because at that moment you might be. I can guarantee you one thing. Abstaining from worship because you feel unworthy is not going to produce anything!
So forget about yourself and worship HIM. This may or may not bring about a change in your life (doubtful as that might be), but it will give God the worship due his name. And that is what worship is all about.
